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EDITORIAL ===================
SPINNING WHEELS
Most times these days, I feel like I am spinning
wheels. Maybe a better analogy would come form Alice In Wonderland.
. . running faster and faster just to stay in place but not getting
any further ahead.
(Warning – this may be more information than you
care to know.) I think that I have finally entered menopause –
full fledged. I find myself getting irritated more easily, having
major mood swings and often slipping into feelings of sadness. I
feel a little bit like Peggy Lee: Is That All There Is?
I confess, I am the type of person who thrives in
an environment of approval – even thought I tend to seek out
opportunities that do not natural give me this. Lately, I am craving
support, affection and validation in ridiculous proportions to my
usual self. I am pretty good at disguising it (most of the time),
but I can tell from the comments of friends that it is beginning to
annoy them. Worse, I have bouts of questioning my own competence.
Doses of evening primrose help a little, but I think it is time to
see my general MD.
So what? Well, usually I am great at going with
the flow. And my optimistic approach (OK, yes I am cynical but not
negative) just isn’t cutting the mustard. I get very nervous that
I may slip into a funk that will have a terrible impact both
personally and professionally. Then, I panic that I will create a
self-fulfilling prophecy. It is like trying very hard not to think
of the white elephant. I do not like feeling this way!
Now, I know that you may be wondering if this has
anything to do with September 11th? Maybe, I don’t know
for sure, except to say that this has been coming on for at least
six months. So perhaps it has been aggravated but not initiated by
recent events.
Now what? Well that is the problem. I can’t seem
to kick myself out of the funk and I am not very motivated to seek
the assistance of anyone else. Oh now don’t get on my case – I
know a coach would be perfect for this. And yes, I think I have
found one.
Part of me thinks everything will just blow over.
I have a good life without any hardships. Who am I to complain? Then
it hits me . . . maybe I am not the only one feeling this way. In
fact, I bet most of us do quite often. In the past I have been the
odd person out because I am usually so even keeled.
My point, you wonder? I’m not sure that I know
or even if I have one. Here goes. It is normal and inevitable that
we will go through all sorts of moods in our journeys, some pleasant
and some not. We all grow older for each day we are on this earth.
It is a process that is natural and common to all. Life gives us
various challenges that help us to grow and truly live. It isn’t
supposed to be smooth and easy. It doesn’t mean that I have to
like it. But it is about making decisions, acting on then and
persevering and acting on them again and again. Finally, it means
diligence, hard work and discipline. Funny, but all in all it always
comes back to living each moment in the present. Basically, get on
with it.
When I despair, I remember that all through
history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been
tyrants and murderers and for a time they seem invincible but in the
end, they always fall--think of it, ALWAYS."
~ Mahatma Gandhi
You are now at a crossroads. This is your
opportunity to make the most important decision you will ever make.
Forget your past. Who are you now? Who have you decided you really
are now? Don't think about who you have been. Who are you now? Who
have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it
carefully. Make it powerfully.
~ Anthony Robbins
Genius is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine
percent perspiration.
~ Thomas Edison
The man who makes no mistakes does not usually
make anything.
~ Bishop W.C. Magee
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